Enough -poem-

Can we go back?

To when things were easy?

When the only bad things, we're monsters under our beds,

Because now, I try to hide from the monsters in my head,

Because the battles I face are battles I can’t win,

They say I’m not pretty and not good enough,

If I gain weight, I’m too big, or if I lose weight, I’m too thin,

My hair is too short or never long enough, 

I’m too quiet or too loud,

No matter what I do, it will never be enough,

Will there come a day,

When I’ll be enough?

Because as I live and breathe, I fear I’ll, 

Never be good enough, 

Can I go back, 

From the days I spent dreaming of adventures,

Not the nightmares instead,

Because when things were slower, I had this grand scheme of being someone,

Of being something,

Now all I want is for someone to see me,

That when they really look, they see the real me, 

They say I should be outspoken, then try to quiet me,

I'm told to be a good girl, then told to be a more wild, 

When I say I don’t want children, they tell me to have a child, 

No matter what I do, it will never be enough,

Will there come a day,

When I’ll be enough?

Because as I live and breathe, I fear I’ll, 

Never be good enough, 

When can I stop this grand charade?

This song and dance of pleasing others instead of myself,

I want to break the mold and be free of the chains that hold me back in fear of change,

Will there come a day when the voices will drop, and I’ll ignore the suggestions,

Of how to act or behave when they wait for my reaction,

I want them to breathe, to see, to witness my extraction,

From the person they think I should be,

To the girl, I know is enough, 

Because where I sit now, I’m this beautiful wild thing, With short hair and dreams as vast as the sea, 

I’m outspoken and dance in the rain,

Regardless of looking insane,

I do the things people told me not to do because life’s too short to be afraid,

Of the boundaries people set for me, 

No matter what I do, it will always be enough,

And there will come a day,

When I know I am enough,

Because as I live and breathe, I’ll never fear it again,

I’ll always  be good enough, 

Because I’m good enough for me.