Sunday, August 25, 2024

Poem: The Crushing Weight of Silence

Wishing you luck

In love and life


Sets my soul to crumble


Under the weight of what I’ve left unsaid


I wished you had stayed


Held me close


Instead of away


I wished you had listened


To my pleas


Instead of assigning blame


I wished you knew


Just how much I wanted you


Flaws and all


I wished you knew my reasoning


Behind choosing to step away


Because then you’d truly know


The depth of my feelings for you


I wished I could give you what you wanted


But in good conscious


I can’t


I wished I could be a good mother


But I know I would not


When you already shame me


For the darkness, I have inside


It wouldn’t be fair to you


Or for whoever I create


To bear the burdens of a mother


Too damaged by others 


To simply celebrate 


I wished I could be me


The me who I want to be


But the veil can’t be lifted for too long


Before I retreat underneath 


In sweet relief


When there’s been too much light 

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